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I photographed this a while back... I've always like it. Plus, it seems to fit this post.
I'm so exhausted. No, I haven't worked all day. I haven't been gone all day. I haven't done hardly anything but walk around the house... all day. But I'm dead tired. Have been for the past week.
It's because I can't sleep. I toss and turn all night long, and wake up all hours of the night.
And I know why - my entire back just aches so much so that my body cannot relax . Muscle pain and nerve problems. I'm going to see the doctor soon and I sure hope they can help. I've had enough of these sleepless nights. It's really starting to catch up to me. Pain + no sleep = an irritable, sad me. The past few days I've been on the verge of (if not) depression, and very easily aggravated. Tonight, I finally put two and two together.
Pain can do strange things to people. Or is that just my thinking? It can make you happy, it can make you sad, it can actually turn you on, it can change your life, your thoughts, and your feelings... so much, for such a small word.
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In Dreams
"And in dreams I am free
falling into what is not;
what will be what is.
It's this intense hatred
for reality twisted
in an obsession of hope
Defy the stagnant
life that speaks only
what can be but wills not.
God's grace,
not my self fear
of what I think
I cannot be."
-rivka