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... of the Drumstick story. Although, not really in "story-style." Rico and I actually had to experience the non-fantasy-really-bad side of D/d and D/s the past few days. Well, this is what happened...
After the drumstick spanking, I didn't really want to admit it at first, but I was still feeling guilty and regretful. I knew that if we were able to really be together, I would've asked him to continue spanking me. But what to do when that's not possible? I wasn't sure, but we had to try something. So I admitted it to him and he decided to punish me. Well, here I am thinking "guilt release," and he's over there thinking, "punishment - must get the point across." Probably a typical newbie screw-up, but one we had to deal with nonetheless.
Can I just say... HE GOT THE POINT ACROSS!!!!
Apparently, I'd done a couple other less-serious things and he decided to "add those in" to my guilt release "punishment." I was not a happy camper. On top of all that, the things he chose happened to be things that really affect me more severely than they would normal people (for different physical reasons - nothing that could kill me or seriously mess with my health). But, it's OK because we learned a whole lot through it.
1) Communication is critical. 2) I have physical issues that make certain punishments impact me much more severely. 3) My being in the right mind-set for whatever is about to happen to me is super important.
Even though it was really hard for me, I did go through with everything he'd originally chosen for me to accept. In doing so, I kept from letting myself down and dealing with more regret later, and I also proved to him that I would submit to anything he firmly decided and that I was truly serious about my committment to this lifestyle.