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Right so... I'm still not over it. But in a better light now. The more I think about it, the more OK I am with it all. That little twitch you get in your stomach when S/O gets that *look* and that *tone* in his demeanor... is something like the feeling I've got. It's a humbled feeling, an anxious feeling; a submissive feeling. I've decided to look at my decision to be happy with his judgment as an act of submission. There will always be things he decides that I don't necessarily agree with, or would do myself. Why not start now disciplining myself to accept it no matter what?
On a separate note, I asked Rico for a list of six things he'd like to see changed in me (my personality, my actions, etc.). Thankfully, he only came up with two, lol.
1) Don't get to the point where I absolutely freak out 2) Don't walk/stomp/stalk away when I'm frustrated with him or something we're talking about.
This week I'm going to try and respect him more. When I get irritated (whether it's with him or not), I get mouthy and become disrespectful towards him either in word or in deed. I want to change that and I'm going to sincerely ask him to help me. . . EEK!