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My story of how I got into the spanko/kinky world is probably both stereotypical and unique at the same time. I always knew I liked spanking; played spanking games with my kid friends before I was even in grade school. Because I grew up in a very conservative household, the sexual side of it (anything for that matter) wasn't even a factor until I was a teenager and discovered the wonderful internet world. *g* After learning enough to be sure getting caught wasn't a problem, I set out to meet all my curiosity's needs.

Convictions kept me from getting wrapped up in most porn, but I found a way to excuse myself from that panging in my heart by *reading* - and read I did. One of the first things I ran across was a spanking story board. All of a sudden, all these weird feelings I had concerning that subject suddenly made perfect sense. But that didn't change the fact that I still thought I was a freak.

The first boyfriend I had came at about 13 going on 14. Because I was still very naive, I thought I was in love and proceeded to pour my life's secrets out to this boy. I eventually confided in him my secret spanko desires. He was OK with that. But when I went a step further and started talking about D/d, D/s type things... he flipped. We weren't together much longer. The next relationship I had was a turning point in my life. I didn't expose my "deep, dark secrets", but I was still very naive and wound up in a very bad predicament. After that, I hated boys/men and sincerely thought I could never trust another one in my whole life. My dad didn't help at all.., but that's another story.

I imagine God saw my distress and decided to answer my prayers, because soon after he sent me my S/O (whom for several reasons I will refer to as "Rico" on this board). We've been together 3 years now and are engaged!

In short, Rico is perfect for me. He never knew terms for his "secrets" and "desires" before he met me, but now he does, and we're learning more every day. Although I'm sure the exact definitions could be argued and whatnot, but for the purposes of this blog I'll define our relationship as a personal mix between D/d and D/s. However, many sexual things are excluded at this point because of both our spiritual convictions. After marriage, however.... *weg*


Edited in (Jan. 2007):

About Me.

Well, I'm the submissive of a (slowly intensifying) D/s relationship with my wonderful Dom, Rico. We've been together 3 years January 27, 2007 and plan to be together the rest of our lives.

Our situation is slightly complicated in that we're not married yet, and still living with our seperate families. We're getting married in May of 2007, though, and goodbye complications!

Some specifics you should probably know:

Believe it or not, Rico and I do not have sex (of any kind) and will not until we're married.
We are both sincere Christians (not Catholic; protestant). Because of the convictions we both have about that type of thing, my writing on this blog will never contain explicitly sexual material. By explicitly sexual I mean: descriptions of sexual acts and/or sexual parts.
You get the point.

Comments that consist of sexually explicit speech will be edited or deleted.

Also, please don't take it the wrong way if I do not link to your blog. There are several reasons I may do this. If you see that I haven't and care to know why, email me and I'll (honestly) explain.

I sincerely hope you enjoy reading this blog, and feel free to email me or Rico anytime. Our addresses are:


About me

  • Intro (with up-to-date edits)
  • In Dreams

    "And in dreams I am free
    falling into what is not;
    what will be what is.

    It's this intense hatred
    for reality twisted
    in an obsession of hope

    Defy the stagnant
    life that speaks only
    what can be but wills not.

    God's grace,
    not my self fear
    of what I think I cannot be."


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